So at a time like this, most people would jump up and down and shout "I'm BACK!" (or, as I'd imagine now a days, jump up and shout "Yah-ta!" like Hiro from Heroes)... but I don't really know if I'm really "back".

I've been away for so long. Not just from DeviantArt, not just from art itself, mainly I've been away from being creative. Years have passed since I first started drawing. Originally as an outlet, then as one of the one creative things that I could do (I can't play an instrument, I can't write poetry, I can't dance, or really do much of anything... at least back in the day... now I can do a little bit of everything. Is it good? Hells no, but if you have fun doing it, then fuck what others think of it). Eventually it went on to a purpose for a site (which no longer exists). Then... I don't know. Life came up. Things happened. Love was found. Love was lost. Life seemed full. Life seemed empty. Moved out from my parents a long time ago (what seems like ages, even though it's been over 5 years). But living with another or alone, either way you need to pay bills. You need to survive. So that's what I've been doing. Trying my best to survive, even when at times I wish that I could just let go and drift away forever and ever and beyond. Or whatever.

So "life" itself has mainly consisted of working and sleeping. A lack of joy most days. A sense of hostility others. Every once in a while the little boy that used to be makes an appearance, but is quickly shut down.

One would think that all the random experiences throughout the last many years would be something to draw some kind of inspiration from. But alas, or any Shakespearean term you can come up with, I did not. It feels as if the mind itself has been numbed to the world around, but the body is still following the motions.

"There's bread crumbs along a path. They're dirty and stale. Rodents may have nibbled on them. But my body still follows them whilst my brain shouts "Don't! You'll get sick you fool!""

Anyways... so I used to go by "gobliin" on here... but I forgot the password to that account (and the email account that I signed up with is long gone)... so apparently over a year ago I made this account... but I forgot about it. But who knows, maybe I'll try to be on more. Draw some random crappy pictures, make some random comments, explore and bug artists that I used to know.

Mind you, even though on the last account I made a comment at one point stating that "I'll always be Gobliin!", I don't really know if it applies anymore. Maybe I'll keep the persona for a while longer. It doesn't really make a difference to me. I've gone by many names in many places by many people.

Anyways...

~'til next time, The Banquet Vampire (which is what I go by most of the time)